Sunday, March 18, 2018

I Can Only Imagine

"Even if they sin against you seven times in a day and seven times come back to you saying ‘I repent,’ you must forgive them.”    -Luke 17:3-4


    The song "I Can Only Imagine" by MercyMe has struck a chord with thousands, if not millions, of people around the world with its emotional lyrics. A movie recently came out about the backstory of Bart Millard and how the song came to be. I won't spoil the movie or backstory completely in case you don't know it, but I highly recommend spending the $10 to see this movie. Anyway, the basis is growing with God and being able to forgive as God forgives us. 

    This movie came to me at a perfect time. I have been struggling with forgiving someone close to me when they don't even know they are in the wrong. I have had a close friend for several years now that has been taking advantage of my kindness and carefree attitude for a long time. I always brushed it off or ignored it until recently when that person has become manipulative and selfish in anything we do or talk about. I have tried brushing it off and I have tried confronting the person but no matter the conversation, if it doesn't go their way, then it didn't happen. It has become such a burden on my life in all areas whether it be school, the gym, social life, etc. If it doesn't make that person happy or benefit them in some way, then they will have no part of it and if they aren't included in every little thing I am doing, then a grudge will be held for at least a day. 

    I have heard from several people that this is not a healthy friendship and that the person needs to look in the mirror or I need to drop them as a friend. Well, it's hard to drop someone as a friend when they have become such a big part of your life. I have been praying about how to handle the situation for months but it just keeps boiling up. One thing after the other. So after seeing this movie tonight, I am not asking God to tell me what to do but how to take a step back and forgive this person. Maybe in doing so they will come to terms with their own faults and get a grasp on it. The bible verse I put at the start of this post spoke to me about this situation also. God always forgives us, no matter what. I need to find it in myself to forgive this person. 
I am not saying I will keep them as a friend, that would be ideal, but rather, in the end, I will be able to say that I forgave them for wronging me for so many years. 

    Forgiving someone whether it be a friend, a family member, or yourself, is the hardest thing to do. But find it in yourself to forgive, because the Lord forgives without a doubt in His mind.